So I finally stepped on the scale. First, the actual number: 278. Last weigh-in (before Thanksgiving) was 282. That makes 97 lbs overall, and 89 since I started this new style of eating back in early February.
I guess it’s good news, as I did lose, though certainly not what I could have lost […]

I’m taking a page from Lent (where I normally give up giving up things) and am resolving to be resolution free this year. That said, I do have two things I need to do this year: keep going and make a dent in the 140 or so lbs left to lose, and learn more about […]

So I’ve decided to postpone my next weigh-in until next Monday. Mostly I’d like to give myself a better chance of seeing some downward movement since the last one. I should be in pretty good shape. Even though I went way off track for two or so weeks after Thanksgiving, my theory is […]

When I last left you (two weeks ago), I was struggling to get myself back on track. Not easy, since the weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas are really fraught with peril!
Ah, but the good news is that I’m back on track. The bad news is that I had to get really sick to get there, […]

Over on Slim Spirited, Nikki writes:

As long as I keep writing here I won’t totally fall off the wagon. I have to remind myself of this and keep coming back.

I’m going to take a page from her book, and give that a good college try. Maybe some virtual accountability will help get me back on […]

Well, I’m still not on track (still finding reasons to put off trying the program in The Diet Cure). I gotta get my butt in gear, or else this will wind up being slip sliding all through Christmas, and since I’m traveling again, it could wind up being a month straight of being off-track. Not […]

The Diet Cure arrived from Amazon yesterday, and I started skimming this afternoon. What I read was really very interesting, so I’m going to experiment with its recommendations and report back later this week.
In the meantime, I’ve been holding on to a couple of snippets related to comfort that I thought worth logging here. Now, […]

You may have guessed it, but I’ve been a bit quiet because I’ve been struggling. And heaven forbid I should come clean and admit that I’m not so perfect.
Boy, travel really screws me up every time. My Thanksgiving wasn’t a horror, but I did indulge. And driving home on Saturday, I decided, what the […]

It’s been three weeks since my last weigh-in. I’ve mostly done the weigh-in thing every other week, but decided to hold off an extra week to get a number just before the holiday.
Wowee wow wow. I’m down 12 lbs to 281!
Since last year, I’ve lost 93 lbs. Seven more to go to 100. Alas, at […]

Okay, so I’ve been a bit snippy about the media deciding to “expose” what it’s like to weigh 350 by putting Tyra Banks and an ET correspondent into a fat suit and then parading them around with a hidden camera. Of course, what both of them made a huge deal about was the “horrible” way […]

So, I watched both Tyra Banks and Oprah yesterday. Both shows were on the subject of fat.

I was a bit surprised to see Oprah and Kirstie Alley together at the opening. In her commercials, Kirstie has looked a bit tubby (the angles didn’t really hide the middle she was still carrying). In yesterday’s show, […]

So, as I mentioned, I had my last therapy session last week. While there, I mentioned that I was interested in coming up with a flow chart of sorts to try and account for the different places people are with their weight loss or compulsive overeating.
For example, so far I see the questions being […]

Has this ever happened to you? You go on a diet, and at some point relatively early on, you have the sweets dream. In mine, this usually involves a buffet of treats, something you’d find at the best restaurant brunch. And of course, in my dream, I’m inhaling all types of sugar.
I’ve always […]

Debra has a great post today about eating to soothe. It’s very interesting when put this up against yesterday’s Oprah, which was about a country music star (Mindy McCready) whose boyfriend had nearly killed her a few months back.
Did she leave him? Nope. She loves him, and in fact is pregnant with his […]

So yesterday’s Oprah was interesting. The topic was why women let themselves go. This was mostly code for why women let themselves get fat. Yes, there was a bit of discussion about putting hair in ponytails and not putting on makeup. But given how easy those problems are to fix, I don’t think this would […]

It’s been years since I’ve seen this side of 300. About three years ago, I clocked in at 372 on a routine doctor’s visit. And I can guarentee I gained after that, but am unsure just how high I may have gone. All in all, I think I’ve been 300+ for at least 6 years, […]

Deepak Chopra has a great post about the spiritual Catch-22 in our lives, and how it relates to addictions and compulsions. More importantly, he also provides a very interesting nugget (see emphasis below) that suggests one possible way out:

The basic question is how to escape the paradox that resisting fear (or evil or neurosis) only […]

Yesterday was both a horrible and a great day. It was horrible, because some ongoing premenopausal bleeding problems (due to fibroids) had me in the emergency room. I’ve been dealing with this since June, when I had my first-ever three week period. Fortunately, I didn’t need to be admitted yesterday (I was astonished I […]

I mentioned yesterday that I’ve been reading Chris Lawford’s tale of addiction (Symptoms of Withdrawal) rather than the book Oprah picked for her book club, James Frey’s A Million Little Pieces.
I actually bought the latter, but put it down after reading the first page. I may get back to it eventually, since I […]

How interesting that just as I’m posting about “giving up the fantasy that someone was going to come and take care of me,” Nikki (over on Slim Spirited) writes:

Really, I just want to turn my life over to someone to run it. I don’t want to have to worry about bills, or my health anymore. […]

A couple of weeks ago, I mentioned that one of the aspects of my “plan” is working to find a positive answer to Einstein’s reputed question: “Is the universe friendly?”

Albert Einstein once said the most important question a human being can ask is “Is the universe friendly?” Think of that for a moment. How […]

Over on advoc84justice, Grace is describing her experiences with OA and its version of the 12-step program. Re step 1 (We admitted we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.), Grace writes:

Can anyone who weighs 350 pounds really believe they are in control of their eating? …
I was not in control […]

Well, there’s an hour of my life I won’t get back. And I had to watch it in real time, as I was tivo’ing My Name Is Earl. Bravo’s Great Things About Being … Fat (part of a series that also includes great things about being 30, queer, and blond; yikes) just wasn’t great at […]

The other day, I shared what I’m calling the lazy person’s guide to
managing carbs. I thought it might be helpful to share a bit more specifics about what I’m eating.
Well, of course, as the previous post states, I’m pretty leery of (and less-than-compliant with) any diet that requires a lot of work. I’m also […]

So, when I announced this blog, I said that my premise was that the way to manage overeating is to choose to be HEALTHY. I strongly believe that this is possible.
For example, I have some vague recollections about seeing a Dr. Phil episode where he pointed out the truth that this is indeed a choice. […]