So I’m still on track to weigh in a week from now. But boy, I’m not as on track as I really should be. I’ve not fallen off the wagon, but I’m sure hanging over the edge!

What probably isn’t helping me is that I added cereal to my diet last week. If you’re new to Act Boldly, you might not know I’ve been dealing with fibroids for nearly 10 months now, and because of that, I’ve been seriously anemic. [Sidebar: check out this post on weight loss and estrogen over at Jimmy Moore’s.]

I’ve been on Lupron since October to deal with the bleeding, and until January, it was working great. But it was almost like I didn’t get my January shot.

Anyways, the February shot seems to have “kicked in” and I’m back to a trickle rather than a flow. But although I’m on major horse pills of iron, I wanted to try and get more in my diet. I won’t eat liver. But some of the fortified cereals (like Total) have a lot of iron in them, so I’ve been doing them for weekend breakfasts and evening snacks.

I suspect that this kind of eating is what’s keeping me from being back to being totally on track. And I should know better. I had been doing the individual servings of Smart Start from our cafeteria until I realized that was over 20g of sugar per serving! Total isn’t quite as bad, but boy, cereal is not a volumetrics food…a little tiny bit is sure a gigantic amount of calories!

So in this state, I found myself at my nieces’ birthday party yesterday. They like Chinese, so their parents did take-out Chinese. And not only did I eat too much of the Sesame Chicken (if General Tso’s is the Chinese Big Mac, Sesame Chicken is the Quarter Pounder with Cheese :), I wound up eating birthday cake and ice cream.

What’s bizarre is that I don’t even care for angel food cake or for vanilla, but I had both.

Ah well, I’m back on track today…so far. And I am committed to weighing in next week. I also want to do well, as my UAE procedure is scheduled for late April. The more I lose, the easier I think my recovery will be.

Both butterstick and Sheryl have recently posted about life on the edge (which I talked about more last week).

It’s scary how much these stories sound alike. I’m about a third of the way through The Hungry Years, William Leith’s story of food addiction. I guess guys can go through it too.

My current theory is that healthy eating gives you a measure of protection (a la immunity) against these kinds of cravings and binges. And while it’s probably not an issue of morality in the concept of good foods and bad foods, there may well be good and bad foods from a physiology perspective. A piece of angel food cake is not going to derail me. But if I chain a few of these meals together, wham-o, it’s back to craving city. So as of today, I’m back to being really on track. No more cereal. And on Wednesday (March 1st), I’m back to skipping the Diet Coke during the week.

I’m speculating that the way I want to go is essentially to stay on track most of the time, and then go off-track on holidays and vacation. But that’s only if I figure out how to get back on track easily.

Of course, all this would be much easer if we didn’t have the low-fat and low-carb camps acting like the Hatfields and the McCoys. But more on that later.